labels

so i havent officially started college yet. but im not too nervous about it sense i only have 2 classes and only go 3 days a week. so it should be a piece of cake to handle that.

what i am worried about however is work and moving into this house. i cant seem to get enough hours at work and the hours i do get are all at night. therefore no social life what so ever. but i suppose i can handle that. maybe i even need that. sometimes im too social for my own good. and as a result im noticing more and more that i am jsut plain really bad at being alone. thankfully i have a few freinds who are willing to hang out as much as possible. which is nice.
anyways
moving into this house has been a major stressor as well. i cant find roomates for the life of me. and as i allready mentioned im bad at being alone so stayign there all by myself is a no go. and i also cant afford to stay there by myself either. sense meijers cant give me enough hours.
so these two things really clash. which is odd. but whatever ill figure it out. maybe ill get a second little day job. idk

anyways. everything else is actually going amazing. i mean yes there have been alot of changes for everyone latley. and dont get me wrong. i was soooooo stressed about it for the longest time. but i guess these changes mostly have really started to show me who my real friends are and that im going to be making alot of new friends as well.
i guess the thing that ive noticed most about college and everyone growing up is that our whole lives we have been ruled by labels. we put a label on everything and everyone. but now that were all getting older. its a little easier to jsut relax and be ourself. i mean were all getting to the point where everyone is going in diferent directions. and we are all being really chill about it. everyone is kind of excepting the fact that we are all different. and its ok. i mean no one really cares about how you dress or if you scrub it to class or if you have a girlfriend or a boyfriend or about your race or weight. we all just really want to be accepted for who we are. and in exchange we are willing to accept others as that too.
and that to me is the hugest relief. i guess i didnt realise how much these lables have ran my life in the past. i mean now im really finding myslef even more comfortable with my oldest friends and even some strangers.
so basically.
it feels really good to be me
and to have someone to accept me for who i am
no matter what
:)

well
this is my first blog
i think its a really good idea
and im excited to share all my new college experience with you guys
ill think of something interesting to write later im sure
:)