anything can be seen as really ugly if you shine too much light on it

anyone else notice that once things start to get too good. then everything falls apart.

like i finally start to get comfortable and content and truly happy.

and its like something just HAS to come along and remind me that nothing can ever be perfect.

not even for a little while?

:(

"And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can't ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older and you see the people in your life break one by one.You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it's already happened."


i found this quote and i think its so true.
but the first time i read it i read it in a negative sense. but then i was thinking about it.
do you think you have been broken from who you once were? and if so do you think thats necessarily a bad thing?

i know ive been broken. but when you break somehow you have to get yourself back together. so is it necessarily a bad thing to be broken and possibly come out a better person, even if its a different person?

the snow is pretty outside today. falling really nice and soft.

and i am feeling very calm today. very relaxed.

im not really sure why. but today i am content.

even missing someone doesnt feel so draining today.

strep.
with mono on top.

the sickest sick sundae ever

my life?
you wanna know what my life is like?

the truth is, you dont get it.
the truth is, you cant understand
the truth is, my life would haunt you

you know nothing about me

and the only person who really does
is about to be taken away from me

ok
here it is

sometimes we get ourselves in waaay over our heads
sometimes we get ourselves in too deep
sometimes something little turns into something life changing

and sometimes the mess we left ourseves, is too much to chean up on our own....