so today made me think. alot.
life has been pretty shitty latley. and today was no acception.
however. i realised something today.
first thing this morning i was sitting outside feeling angry and upset, and a gorgous butterfly came out of no where and landed in front of me. the kind of butterfly that isnt always jsut flying around in my weed filled back yard that has no flowerd. and it made me stop and think. at how many more things in this world there are besides these problems that i cant seem to see past. made me realise there are so many small yet amazing things in this world that i completly look over every single day.
where did the time go when i wanted to explore the world and see everything beautiful and moving that there was to see? where did my dreams go? and sense when am i the type of person to be sitting alone in my house sulking, and worrying myself sick over things i cant control?
unfortunatly after this realization, i did let myself fall back into freting over my rediculous issues, untill later i was reminded again.
i was hanging out with one of my oldest friends. she knows who she is. haha
and i realised that i forgot just how well she knows me. she knows i have trouble letting these problems go. but distracts me with things like brownies, golf cart rides, and walks talking about our childhood adventures. and it was then, walking on the railroad tracks, taking pics, and stopping to stare at deer, that i remembered again. that no matter what my problems are, the railroad tracks will always be there.
memories will always be there. beautiful and moving events will always be happening even where you least expect it.
also this brought another thought. that terrible and heartbreaking things are always happening around you wheather you know it or not. i was driving the other day, and realised that every house i pass, there could be someone in that house with a broken heart. someone could be in there hurting themselves or someone they love. and just driving by we would never know it.
my point in this. is that everywhere someone is going through something good, or something terrible. therefore whichever one of these highs or lows you may be going through, there is always somewhere where the opposite is possible. we should cherish the good times beacuse they break up the bad, adn we should learn from the bad times beacuse good ones are just around the corner and being bitter and angry wont allow us to enjoy the good times.
so with that you have my rant of the night.
hope it made as much sense to you as it did to me in my exhausted state
love
so
