and she asked herself

"how did i get this way"

was it too many ciggarettes
or too many nights alone

was it too many chances
or taking a chance when she had everything to loose

was it too many emotions
or not feeling quite enough

was it the failure
or being afraid of sucess

was it hating what she was becoming
or the inability to stop what had already started


was it the fact that she was never quite enough no matter what she did

or was it the simple fact that she coudlnt change what she despratly needed to...