i have never had a holliday that sucked quite like this one.

its weird ya kno? im not really into thanksgiving most the time, like i dont get all pumped up and excited that i have to awkwardly sit with family. but usually it is nice to have them all together and be warm and full of food.

but this year i feel really lonley. my family left. my dad is here but working jsut like me. i picked up extra hours at work cuz i didnt kno what else to do. and we wont even be busy. the ppl who are home from school and i really wanna see will be busy with there actual thanksgivings and family time.

and idk. i didnt think i would be so sad.
but honestly. i really really am. like i jsut feel alone and sad.
at the time of year your not supposed to feel those things.
thats what gets me most