i spent alot of time with my father over the weekend
which is weird beacuse when i lived at home we probably spoke for no more than 20 min a week total.

the thing about my father and i is that we are the exact same person. thats usually why we but heads so much
but wehn we do get along. its great
and we got along this weekend really well

and the thing i realised is that although my father and i are alot alike. he has one big quality that i sometimes lack

he has this amazing way of looking at the world from a very simple point of view. he can take a situation and twist it so that it all seems very black and white. and therefore the situation can be passed and everyne can learn and move on. now i realise this cannot work for EVERY situation. but im finding that it can work for alot of things that i always thought were so complicated.

and its amazing how different your life looks when viewed from this black and white angle. mind you we still need to see colors. but sometimes it helps to be colorblind when you feel particularly stuck in a situation.

i think thats what i need to do now.
go color blind and appologize and learn from this.

thanks dad. you will never read this. and i could never say these things to your face.
but i love you and you have taught me more than i could ever learn on my own.